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Showing posts with label Lawrence. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Lawrence. Show all posts

Sunday, January 31, 2010

Pregnancy Paranoia at 11 weeks.

There is a certain amount of paranoia associated with pregnancy. Most of it, in my case, is associated with baby loss. I had a subchorionic hemorrhage in the first trimester of my first pregnancy. Thank God Lawrence was just fine.

My second pregnancy was ectopic. I KNEW I was pregnant but my period started on the right day. I was sad about being mistaken but the longer I bled, the more I knew it just didn't look right. It continued past the normal 7 days, and continued and it became clear that I was pregnant or had been and that something was very wrong. It took me a really long time to recover mentally from that loss. I even had a name picked out. Around the time I lost this baby, another friend had just started telling folks that she was pregnant. It was beautiful and difficult. She had unknowingly chosen the same name for her baby that I had chosen for mine. I was really looking forward to the birth of her baby and then at 40 weeks, he died. It was so crazy! I lost mine to an ectopic pregnancy very, very early and she lost hers to a crazy thing that no one could have foreseen at 40 weeks.

I have entered the 11th week of my 3rd pregnancy. I am so thankful that the only complication so far is a painless UTI. I look forward to the months to come. I won't say that I'm fully cured of my paranoia though. But I do have plan for dealing with most things that could go wrong. I've gone over some of it in my head, at least. My biggest concern in this area is my big boy, Lawrence. I haven't told him yet and I won't. I want him to just notice that I'm pregnant. I am not telling him, ainly, because I wouldn't want to have to tell him sad news if something happened. I know, all kids get sad news, he has even been to a few funerals and a wake but this is different. So I have decided to wait until he figures it out. I think he is going to be a great, big brother. I just need some more time to "feel" safe and to look pregnant.

Grow, 11 week-fig-sized baby, grow.

Wednesday, July 1, 2009

Funny

Last weekend, we were in St. Louis for the Robinson Family Reunion (Mom Liz's family). On Saturday, I suggested we go to the Gateway Arch because Lewis and Lawrence had never been there. We waited in line for almost an hour just to get inside. When we got inside, Lawrence asked the security guard, "Do you live here?"

Tonight we went to Wal-Mart to purchase some swim goggles for me. As we walked past the bicycle aisle, Lawrence noticed that there we bikes hanging from the ceiling to which he informed us, "The ceiling is collecting bikes."

I love this kid!

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

No Pow, Pow

Did you know what the letter 'L' and children's blocks that are shaped with a 90 degree angle have in common? If turned the right (or wrong) way, they both look like guns. Yep, guns. The Captain and I were practicing cutting and were having quite the fun time cutting out shapes and letters the other day when he realized (again) that if you turn an 'L' the other way and hold it in your fist, it looks like a gun. Darn it!

I'm from Iowa. I was raised, at least to some extent, around guns. Grandpa hunted. Aunt Kris owns a few guns. They both, for very different reasons, went shooting in the woods. One for hunting, the other for ummm, target practice, yeah that's it. Oh, and there was never a gun in my mother's house at anytime during my childhood. I did, however, courtesy of Aunt Kris, have toy guns. I loved my toy guns but eventually I grew out of them. I always liked guns on a theoretical level. Guns were cool. Guns were pretty. If I wanted to see one I could request a look at Aunt Kris's collection, read one of her gun magazines or go to a gun shop. They have those in Des Moines, IA. I had hoped at one point or another to join a shooting range and practice shooting and keep one there, in a locker, at the range. Not at my house. Too scary, too dangerous for children and clumbsy adults.

My husband is from the Southside of Chicago. But he was a Boy Scout. He learned the proper use of guns but only at camp. No guns at home. If I can stereotype for a minute here, as far as I know, guns on the Southside of Chicago are rarely for hunting dinner or game. They are protection or unfortunately, a different kind of hunting. Guns are not a good thing, in my opinion, on the south side of Chicago. It seems that the wrong people have the guns.

For our honeymoon, we went to Orlando, FL. I never realized it before but if it weren't for Mickey Mouse and multi-million dollar subdivisions, Orlando would pretty much be a country town. So, it's really no surprise that there were a lot of gun ranges. We know that because they were advertised on several big billboards around town. I suggested to Lew that we go to one. He was thrilled and made it his mission to call them all and find the cheapest rates. And he found the cheapest one, it was right by the prison. Still not sure how to think about that. We had fun that night shooting cheap ammunition at our paper targets.

We now live in the South Suburbs of Chicago. And I have a huge insecurity about guns and raising my black son in Chicago. Here, black boys with guns get shot down in the street or they shoot other black boys. I would like to get my boy in Boy Scouts so he can learn survival tactics, gun safety, honor, perseverance, organization, teamwork, etc. I want him to know how to build things, swim, row, build a fire, save a life, pitch a tent and whatever the heck else Boy Scouts learn. I'd love for him to follow in his father and uncle's footsteps and rise to the level of Order of the Eagle. I really look forward to being a den mother. I will look fly in that uniform and I really want to learn all that stuff too.

I do not, on the other other hand, look forward to explaining to him that the children down the street may not understand gun safety, they may not have been taught much about guns at all. The children down the street and the adults in uniform may not recognize that he is a well-prepared, brave, honest and honorable boy when they see him walking down the street.

I want him to love God and respect human life. Especially his own. I don't want him to ever get near a gun, touch a gun or even look at a gun if he isn't at Boy Scout camp. Too much TV, too many 'cool' looking guys on TV holding their guns sideways and looking hard, too many news stories about the little boy who accidentally shot his friend, too many stories about big boys who shot each other on purpose, too many stories about officers who shot a boy down in the street because they thought he had a gun...

But right now he's only 3.5 years old so today we talked about being polite and how its not polite to play pow, pow because real pow, pow hurts people. No guns, not even for pretend and no pointing the letter 'L' or the 90 degree angled block at anyone, ever. There are many lessons to come and I hope we do a good job of teaching them and I hope we can join a scout troop soon.

Friday, January 30, 2009

Saturday, November 1, 2008

I Want to Buy a Stop Sign


Lew and Lawrence were in the car on the way to the grocery store. They were turning the corner and Lawrence said, "Daddy, I want to buy a stop sign."
Lew asked him, "What do you mean you want to buy a stop sign? What are you going to do with a stop sign?"
Lawrence replied, "I want to take it home."
Lew asked, "Why do you need a stop sign at home? What are you going to do with it?"
Lawrence replied, "It's for when I buy my car."

Sunday, June 15, 2008

3rd Birthday

So I said I wasn't going to have a party. I said that and then Armon looked at me sadly and said, "Not even cake? Can't we just come over after church?" So that was it and I kept trying not to have a party but by the end of it there we were. We will have a real party, complete with children (eeek!) and party favors and games on his 5th birthday. In the meantime, we will do a little something....two more years.



It's amazing how much he's changed and how much he's grown. He wipes off my kisses one moment and the next he's saying,"I love you sooo much, Mommy." I love you too, Lolo, Happy Birthday!

I am a Promise

I am a promise
I am a possibility
I am a promise with a capital "P"
I am a great big bundle of potentiality
And I am learnin' to hear God's voice
And I am tryin' to make the right choice
I am a promise to be anything God wants me to be.


I can go anywhere that He wants me to go
I can be anything He wants me to be
I can climb the high mountains
I can cross the wide sea
I'm a great big promise you see!


I am a promise
I am a possibility
I am a promise with a capital "P"
I am a great big bundle of potentiality
And I am learnin' to hear God's voice
And I am tryin' to make the right choice
I'm a promise to be anything God wants me to be
Anything God wants me to be!

Pre-school Graduation

Lawrence started his new daycare on June 2. The graduation program was on June 6th. So he graduated. Pretty cool. Here's some pictures.